I am a full-hearted extrovert. This is fact. I love people and being around people. So naturally, when I'm left completely alone I tend to speak aloud to myself and think about anything and everything. This next week is Spring Break and I get to stay around school because of my internship. Now don't get me wrong, I love alone time every ONCE in a while and need it as well, but this next week may be the longest week of my life. It hasn't even been one day without my roommates and I'm already caught up in my thoughts.
What am I thinking about you ask?
It is not just about March which means that I have approximately 2 MONTHS left before I graduate from college. I'm sorry, what?! It boggles my mind just how quickly this last year has passed. And now I find myself sitting here, looking at pictures from the past 4 years of school and wondering where the time went. There is a large part of me that is incredibly sad. I've grown SO much in the last 4 years and feel like I now understand who I am and who I want to become. I've also grown with many people here. I've gained friendships that will last a life time and I'm sad that we won't live so closely (most likely for a while at least) after this year. And then there is a large part of me that is completely excited for the future (and terrified)! I'm excited to see where these people I love go in life! I'm excited to see where I go in life. The more I progress through this year, I realize just how much I do not know that the future holds. And this both exciting and scary.
Along with this, I have also finished and turned in my YAGM application as well as had my phone interviews and now...I wait. I am SO hopeful for the opportunity to serve within this organization, but I don't want to get my hopes up too high. There are a lot of gifted and wonderful people also applying for these positions and anything could happen. I'll be praying for me and others for now until I find out.
CAMP. Oh my goodness I cannot wait to be back in the place that I love and call home. Really, I cannot stand being apart from the people there as well as the mountains. I've come to realize that I just don't know that I can stay away from the mountains much longer. They, along with the community at camp feed my soul. I'm thinking that moving to somewhere in Montana or Colorado or Washington is necessary in my future, but you never know. And apart from mountains, I just cannot wait to be in the intentional community of camp. That little space of love in the middle of the Absaroka-Beartooth mountains just holds such an incredible place in my heart and I cannot wait to be whole again.
These things are all present and things that I cannot worry about because worrying does no good. My mind is ruminating on so many things at moment among these listed above. So maybe, after all, some alone time is good and needed in this time of change and reflection.
So perhaps I'll call this week Spring reflection. No matter who cheesey that sounds, it's quite true.
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