There is a huge part of that is so anxious to leave and explore. This part is excited and ready to try something new. And then there is this other part of me that is scared and nervous. This part is sad to leave people I love and to be away from all I know well for a year. These are all natural, I'm sure. It is an interesting mix. Everyday is different and I cannot predict how I will feel as I get on that plane.
-Rewind a bit-
It is August, meaning that I just finished camp. And of course this is also affecting how I feel as well. I mean, I'm only been down from the mountain for about 5 days now. Talk about culture shock. After being in intense community for 2.5 months with the same 21 people, it is overwhelming to even drive in a car. When I leaving MT, I entered the Billings airport and thought to myself, "I am way to backcountry for this. I feel dirty and I know no one here and everyone is dressed to nicely." And this was in the Billings airport. I couldn't imagine what it was going to be like in Minneapolis. Cue a minor freak out. So needless to say, I've been slowing trying to transition back to the real world. And I miss Montana dearly. I miss camp and all of my family there. I think of them all daily. This summer was one of new experiences, growth, and laughter. I laughed SO much. And as I look back, I could not be happier with everything that happened and I am forever connected to some of the loveliest people in the world as well as reminded of how much I need to be in the mountains. So after Scotland, the new location may be Montana. Stay tuned for further details on that chapter :)
-Fast forward to now-
This is how I'm feeling: regardless of the space between me and those I love in the states, nothing changes. Thanks to Skype, email and facebook I will easily be able to stay in touch. Of course, I won't be able to sit and have a cup of coffee with people...wait...Skype coffee! Aha! There is a solution! So, though I won't be able to give a hug in the moment, it means the hug when I get back will be more intense and wonderful. This is not goodbye, but rather a "see you later!"
I cannot thank my family and friends enough for the support, love and pushes they've given me. If it was not for them I would not be who I am or where I am today. Money raised for YAGM: $4,500+. Goal met and overcast! THANK YOU.
Words cannot begin to describe how much I love and adore you all.
So here's to a year that will fly by! A year of growing in grace and hope for the future! A year of having quality time in a different capacity and gaining new friendships along the way! A year of challenge!
Cheers! Slainte!
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